Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Letting go.

Have you ever had something happen to you that you couldn't control?
Have you ever had something happen to you that you weren't expecting?

I know I have. I think all of us have if we really take a step back and look at everything that has happened in our lives. I always find it hard at times to let go of things when they are beyond my control, or when I don't expect them. I find it hard to give them to God. But once I give all of that to God, I feel free, I feel at peace.

The other day I was at the barn with my husband to see our horse Clementine. I was having a rough day, it got to a rocky start, and I needed some time with God and what better way to spend it with him than with Clementine. God uses her to soothe my soul. So we have Clementine in the arena and we are exercising her, and she is just going with the flow. Then, suddenly, when asking her to canter, she lets out his HUGE buck, and a squeal. As I was watching Mark work with her in the moment, I saw her freeing herself and it reminding me of well me. That day, I was let go at my job, and I couldn't give all my frustration and hurt to God. I wanted to hang onto it for some reason, but when I saw Clementine just let herself be free in that moment, I knew that I had to free myself from what I was feeling. So at the barn, I gave God my hurt, my anger, my frustration, and my confusion. And after I fully gave myself to him in that moment, I felt peace. I felt free. I felt like squealing and kicking up in the air along with my horse.

I felt good.
Thanks God for using Clementine for yet another life lesson. And for meeting me where I was at that day.

"A horse loves freedom, and the weariest old work horse will roll on the ground or break into a lumbering gallop when he is turned loose into the open." ~Gerald Raferty

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